The Journey officially rebegins!

Wow I forgot all about this blog that I was gonna do, I originally started this over a year ago when I got back from a fantastic trip to Disneyland. I was going to use it to share some pics and scrapbooking that I did of the trip with my fellow trip mates. Somehow though we did most of our scrappin' together and it was never necessary.

So I am going to change it up a bit and use it instead to motivate me and hopefully others on the very scary, yet exciting journey to goal weight.

Weight is something I have always thought I struggled with my whole life. Looking back at pictures of when I was a kid, I so did NOT have a weight problem. Nor did my mom. But she was always so hung up on the fact that she was bigger than the rest of her family. She was always on some diet or exercize kick. To this day the smell of cabbage soup still makes me gag. I am not blaming my mom for my weight, I obviously ate (and ate and ate and ate) to get where I am today, I am only mentioning this cuz well I can. I always felt I was doomed to be fat. I saw how my mom's weight yo-yo'd and thought that would happen to me too. I never really thought I could stop it, she couldn't (or didnt) so how could I?

Two years ago, I felt I was at rock bottom, not just because of my weight, I had been out of work for a long time, I kept finding jobs but they weren't right. I had moved to Arizona, into a very bad living situation, and blah, blah, blah, suffice it to say I felt like my life sucked! Then I took this really fantastic job in SF, started catching up on bills and began planning the trip to Dland with friends. I knew that I was at my highest weight ever by far, (248.8lbs) and felt there was know way I would go to Disneyland like that, (would I even fit on all the rides?) I joined Weight Watchers 5 months before the trip and lost 39lbs. After that I had a hard time staying motivated, the WW leader I had come to know and love (Linda) left and I got stuck with a horrible leader I hated. In her defence she probably really wasn't horrible but I just didn't click with her, and that is kinda important for someone who is going to help you on your weight loss journey. I tried to stick it out but it didn't work, I got an email that a new leader was coming so I tried again, but I just wasn't into it. This was a year ago. During this time I had managed to only gain about 5 lbs. One of my friends and I decided to join WW again but together this time. We went to a different location and I had Lucy so I felt the leader wouldn't be as relevant. Two days before we were supposed to go my grandma died, completely unexpectedly. This pushed everything back but only for 2 weeks, unfortunately in those 2 weeks I gained 10 lbs.

Anyway, we joined and after a little juggling (leader does still matter) we found a great leader and a time that works for the both of us. (Laura has lost 130 lbs). I started with a bang, quickly losing 8 lbs in the first 2 weeks, then just stopped, i have played around with the same 5 lbs now for 2 months. So now it is time to get serious, I know the program works, when you work at it, so I am being diligent, journaling, and have added some new exciting elements.

I discovered some great motivators on Twitter, and some neat blogs.

But what mostly got me motivated was last weeks episode of Biggest Loser, I have always watched and loved the show, jealousy would rear it's ugly head, but not so much to make me get off the couch and use the stair stepper while I watched or anything, (I do and have always refrained from eating anything that Bob or Jillian would yell at me for, so that's somehting right?) But this particular episode was when the contestants all had to do the marathon. Seeing Ron work so hard to walk it really moved something in me. Just the fact that he could do it was amazing, that he was motivated to do it, so inspiring, I have always had it as a goal to do a marathon, but now I really, really want to.

I had already begun researching some gyms and personal trainers, but I actually followed thru with both. I have sinced joined a gym, and hired a seperate off site trainer to kick my butt a couple times a month and keep me accountable for those extra skinny cow ice cream sandwiches that I like so much.

Wow if you read all this you must either be very patient, or very bored, no matter it has been very helpful to write it.

Today I ate cereal for breakfast with 1% milk 5pts
I had a quesadilla with turkey for lunch, lite cheese low car tortilla, 10 pts
Went to the gym and rode the bike and walked on the treadmill, even did a little running, who knew I could run? (certainly not me) and then had some watermelon.

I meet with my new trainer for the first time tomorrow night, she trained one of the BL contestants from season 3 (not quite sure how that works) so I will let you know how it goes, later and happy weight loss for us all!